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David

Sleepless night in Bristol


¦ dialling in from Sky Bunker ¦


01:22 GMT, Thursday 8th April 2010.  

Soft lamps glowing in corners of desk, and behind me, where the sloping roof comes down to a low wall and the coffee table there.  Life support blowing warm air across my bare legs; it's cold, despite the weather FINALLY changing from shitty freezing rain to something resembling mild spring days.  I'm wearing Starsky and big Norwegian wool socks.  

I went to bed around 11, but I got up again at 12.30. Can't sleep. My brain is fizzing with Dog Eat Dog (new novel), and probably the large quantity of Easter egg chocolate I munched around 10pm with a mug of tea.  *rolls eyes*

"No Fear, No Hate, No Pain" by Eurythmics is playing on vinyl: memories of the day I bought my first boxed set of Call of Cthulhu back in 1984.

After several months of struggling with the new book I feel like I'm back into a fluid groove; the characters are alive in my head, even when I'm not writing I'm getting glimpses of scenes with them whilst I'm doing other things.  Let's hope it continues.

Just saw an online advert for Mother's Day.

Downstairs is a runners number on the dinning room table (my girlfriend is doing a run for cancer charity) and it has my mum's name hand-written on it, and the date she died.

Last week a stack of DVD's arrived by post, sent by my sister: they include Christmas 2008, the last Christmas we all shared together, and Cornwall Summer 2009.  I've watched Christmas but I'm not ready to watch Cornwall yet... it was the trip we organised to give mum a chance to see the place she'd always wanted to see before she left us.  Downstairs in the bathroom is a ornamental sailing boat made out of blown glass with a large translucent blue sail... mum bought it for me on the last day in Cornwall, even though she knew how much I hated objects and crap cluttering up my space, she just wanted to buy me something.  I look at that sail every time I lie in the bath.  

This is life.

You get on with it and the people who've gone live on through your memories, and through the objects they've touched and leave behind.  Sometimes it's sad, other times it's comforting.



Letters – fan mail from Japan (continued) – name for a new Great Old One (Cthulhu Mythos)


I’m pretty pleased.

I had an email from this guy in Japan a few weeks back; he’s been reading my novel EDGE and wanted to know if the entity that seeps into the story (Great Old One) had been named.

I replied that it hadn’t, but, I was planning on adding it to the pantheon of new Great Old Ones I created for the RPG Yellow Dawn .


And that I was looking for a suitable name for it.

So, here’s the email thread, and the name of a new Great Old One.  I'll create a formal monster profile for Yellow Dawn and make it available as a PDF once I finish the current work-in-progress (Dog Eat Dog) and get my RPG head back on.



From: xxxxxxx@hotmail.com
To: xxxxxxx@pop02.odn.ne.jp
Subject: RE: Thanks
Date: Thu, 1 Apr 2010 11:50:16 +0000

Dear Atsushi Nakazawa

I was very happy to get a response from you.

It is pleasing to think that we are sharing the same view point on these ideas about the Cthulhu Mythos.

I am thinking I will give the Great Old One I've used in the novel, EDGE, the following name:

Kzuryu-gawa

Also known as "Dragon Flower" in English speaking cults (a connection between the dragon references in the name and the association of cherry blossom with the Kuzuryu-river).  I may include something about the cherry blossom being altered by the imminent arrival or presence of this Great Old One.  The connection to it being a many headed dragon fits the creature, because it can reach out and burn its victims.

Let me know if this idea works for you.

Also, I would like to name you in the acknowledgements when I publish this creature; are you okay that I associate your name with this?


Kind regards

David




> Date: Sun, 21 Mar 2010 23:02:14 +0900
> From: xxxxxxx@pop02.odn.ne.jp
> To: xxxxxxx@hotmail.com
> Subject: Thanks
>
> Dear David J Rodger
>
> Thank you very much for your reply!
> Maybe my thought is similar to you on the point that Old Ones not given
> names are effective to suggest some of unspeakable horror essences, in
> spite of it's pleasant to name them.
>
> Your Mythos RPG Yellow Dawn...I'm interested to hear that you created
> new Mythos pantheons.
> I think It may be good that Old Ones not given a name in novels are
> named in RPG data...it would be better if the author of the novel and
> RPG is the same. It would supply attractive essence of naming and
> non-naming together!
>
> And yes, it's also interesting in suggesting a name, that captures not
> only the alien essence of the Cthulhu Mythos, but also some of our
> culture. In fact, there is a real river named "Kzuryu-gawa"
> (Kuzuryu-river) in Japan. Ku is 9, zu means head, ryu is dragon; Kuzuryu
> is nine headed dragon. On the other hand, one of Japanese-corrupted
> pronunciation of Cthulhu can be Kuzuryu. Moreover, Kanji characters of
> Kuzuryu can, if you wish, be read as Ku-tou-ryu, too...the pronunciation
> is maybe nearer to Cthulhu!
>
> Sincerely yours,
> Atsushi Nakazawa

Cabaret Voltaire Nostalgia


¦ dialling in from Sky Bunker ¦

00:00 GMT, 29/30th March 2010.  Black and bleak outside, a hungry darkness against the glass canopy behind me, the cold ready to suck out all warmth from your bones.  Winter is supposedly over, but there’s no sign of Spring on the horizon. Snow forecast for this weekend, and the weekend after.  Bizarre.

The Sky Bunker is sanctuary and creative enclave.  Life support blowing warm air across my feet and legs.  Lava lamp radiating deep red glow. Small lamps in the corners of the room, low light trapped in the angle where the sloping roof comes down to the stunted walls.

I’ve not long been back from town.  Met up with a new member of my life party called Dan D, friend and colleague of Dan B… and somebody who’s now meshed into the gaming group attached to my Yog forum.  I’m getting back into D&D.  But a few steps away from generic stereotypical character classes, and Dan D seems to be the kind of man, and DM, who’s capable of handling layered character complexity that doesn’t conform to narrow chimneys of behaviour.  A couple beers helped wipe away the savage hangover that saw me groaning like a wounded bear all day at work (Red wine and whisky is not the smartest combo on a Sunday night).

I drove back in shitty rain.  “Could this be real” by Sub-focus playing through stereo on repeat.  And I can hear it now!  No more roaring exhaust; my man the mechanic recently took out the offending plate and welded back together.  So the Rocket’s more purring power than rattling gnashing metal. 

Despite the awful weather forecast, Saturday day time saw a brief spell of golden sunlight; so I took Richy (my mate down from Newcastle) out for a spin in the Rocket, blasting along thin country blacktop winding around hills between Bristol and Bath. Adrenaline city.  My balls still shoot up into the bottom of my throat every time I floor the accelerator.

Richy snapped a pic:

 

Sales are sharply up at the moment.  I've noticed some chatter on the net about Yellow Dawn (positive words) and either people who've read my novels are coming back for more or more people are stumbling upon / being directed to the publisher portal.  Good feeling but also kind of scary.  Who's reading my work?  What do they think?

So I’ve been listening to some old vinyl.  “Micro-phonies” by Cabaret Voltaire; “Eye in the Sky” and “Pyramid” by Alan Parsons Project; and right now I’ve got “Vital Idol” playing, by Billy Idol.

I’ve got this temporal rudder sliding deep through nostalgic waters.

Spring 20 years ago, 1990, I was 19 and moving into the amazing shared-house experience that was 51 Osborne Avenue, Jesmond, Newcastle Upon Tyne.  I was four months into my first novel (awful bloody thing that never saw the light of day), and blissfully optimistic about life.  The downstairs room at the front of the house, big bay window, old writing desk and me with a 1930s smoking jacket.  Jason Judge and John Proudfoot; and Paul Romero (from Spain).  Grassy.  Richy.  Adz.  The Jesmond Village effect.  Then after a couple months, I moved upstairs into the wonderful attic space (front of house) with a view overlooking the graveyard.  I spent 18 months in that house before pulling up stumps, throwing everything into a hire car and driving to a city I'd never seen before; Bristol, and my life changed forever.

Working on Dog Eat Dog, chapters 24 and 26 are shaping up (Ch25 already finished), with Mikhail Drobna getting into a new groove of compartmentalisation and brutality.  Loving it.


Sunday morning licking out a Portuguese tart – don’t tell the girlfriend


¦ dialling in from Sky Bunker ¦

12:14 GMT, Sunday 28th March 2010.

Bright sunshine on a cold day is flooding in through the glass canopy behind my head; despite the miserable forecast of heavy rain.

Got up early, jumped in the Rocket (joined by Richy) and blasted into town, hood down, hats on.

Boston Tea Party.  One of my favourite cafes in Bristol, especially for Sunday’s when they open up mega early.  A few months ago I discovered a new delight sitting on the service counter: it looked like a slightly charred custard tart, a huge stack of them.  “What are they?” I enquired.  Portuguese tarts was the answer.   I had one.  They are amazing.

I told my girlfriend one day about these fantastic sweet and tasty nibbles I was devouring with my coffee on Sunday mornings.  She told me to bring one back.  At which point, they vanished from the service counter… every time I ever went there they weren’t available.  Girlfriend not happy.

Today, I land the Rocket on Park Street and walk into Boston TP with Richy and there they are, a vast mound of the divine things.

But I did, amazingly, remember to buy one for Oj.

It’s been another manic week at work.  Friday saw me and the team head over to the pub after work and sit in brain numbed silence, me supping a pint of dark German lager. MmmmmMMMMmmm.  Richy, my long term friend from Newcastle (known him since I was 6), and his wife Louise turned up as planned and met me there: they’ve been touring around the country and are staying with me in Bristol this weekend.  They both thought my work colleague and I looked as though we'd just come out of a war zone.  Not far wrong, if you consider some of the political skirmishes taking place at the moment.  Really good having Ricy and Louise here.  It’s been good, much more low key than the crazy shenanigans that Geordie Mike and I got up to a couple weeks back.  However, I experienced my old twitchy state caused by an overwhelming need to spend time writing, despite being host to guests.  Richy, being the good mate he is, understands… so Saturday morning I vanished for a few hours to get my fix.  Working on the new novel, Dog Eat Dog, I’ve now finished Chapter 25 and gone back to write Ch 24, Mikhail Drobná being a bad bad man.  Mood music has changed from Solar Fields (which I was using for Ch23 & Ch25, Carlos and the Dead Zone), now I’m onto Killzone Soundtrack, a perfect military mash up for what Drobná is getting himself embroiled in.

Again, this morning, I needed my fix, and so Richy came with me to experience the delight that is Boston Tea Party: and, got to lick out a Portuguese tart.

Bonus.

Dog Eat Dog 100,000 words, Bad Bacon, Social Excess


¦ Dialling in from workstation ¦


13:02 GMT, Friday 19th March 2010.

Feels like an age since I’ve had the time and brain space to write anything down. Life is a blur stretching back weeks now.

I’m sitting at my desk, with a baby blue polyester blanket wrapped around my right shoulder and arm, pulled down to cover my right hand; I went out and bought it a few weeks ago, my defence against the f__king air conditioning system that’s now become my number one enemy at work.  There was an office move a few weeks ago and somebody said they were too hot.  Bollocks.  Nobody else had complained in this area.  Everything had been perfectly fine for years, but this new arrival complained and now the whole air con is in a riot as every day they adjust it because somebody else is now either too hot or too cold.  I’m frozen at regular periods as a gusting torrent of icy air blows down on me… it’s enough to cause the leaves of the big plant on the desk to wiggle and wobble in the current.  My right arm now starts to ache and the bones of my right wrist, too.

Sat eating my bowl of porridge, as I do every morning, made with hot water, no milk, no sugar…  I’m using the silver christening dessert spoon that was given to me when I was a couple months old.  I probably stopped using it in my early teens.  Then moved out and it remained at home.  Mum started using it for her regular breakfast routine (typically started mid-morning and not finished until late afternoon), so for much of my life I’ve associated the spoon with her.  Now it’s back with me, and now I use it every morning and get to think of her.  She’s been gone 16 weeks now.  I really miss her.  My dad is represented by the gold Swiss watch he bequeathed me when he died; he smuggled it out of Switzerland not long after the War, now it’s on my left wrist.  So the spoon and the watch are my trinkets, icons of the man and woman who loved each other enough to bring me and my sister into existence.

Another morning I was sat staring into the bowl of porridge… tilting the bowl I watched it ooze in a single mass towards the rim and it made me think of “Quatermass and the Pit”.  In turn this reminded me of reading the book sitting in a remote mountain villa in Cyprus, during the period I was working on the novel EDGE.  Good memories.  







I’m still working on Dog Eat Dog.  Just popped through the 100,000 word boundary so I’m over halfway.  It’s proving a tough book to write; good fun though.  I’m having to step outside my comfort zone of the “world I know so well”, the world of my previous novels, the common universe they all share.  Now I’m having to work-up new paradigms as a I write, describing that world dragged through an apocalyptic event.  The last chapter I worked on (Ch 23) took me 3 bloody weeks.  Just one chapter.  Worth it though, feedback from ad-hoc reviews have been glowing; this saw one of the main characters hiring a team of CRC roamers to take him into the deep Dead Zone of New Tokyo, avoiding infected (zombies) and coping with the cold alien probing of an unseen force.  Oooooo, *dark smile dripping with brain slime*

Standing in the kitchen the other evening a tune came on Classic FM.  It was amazing.  Very Bond.  Very John Barry.  And it was John Barry.  He’s produced an album called “The Beyondness of Things”, a personal project where he’s taken his favourite things and reworked them a little.  Bloody fantastic.  Can’t buy the album to download though which is a 20th Century f_cker.  I’m not going to buy a bloody physical CD.  Objects, hate them.  If you catch a listen, check out the track "day the earth fell silent".  Beautiful.

A while ago I was complaining about my social life suffering through sacrificing so much of my time to writing.  I went looking for social life and found it, in buckets and bottles, to the extent where I’m now looking to retreat for a while, crawl back into my Sky Bunker cave and cradle my laptop with the soothing stream of words flowing from my brain.

Got food poisoning last weekend. Which meant I didn’t have a weekend.  Instead I spent two days lying on the floor of my lounge, in an empty house, hugging a bucket and thinking I was dying.  All thanks to a bad bacon sandwich. Woke up Saturday morning after a mad Friday night out with Geordie Mike, Dan B and Mr GBH.  Felt a bit rough. Looked in the fridge and found a packet of bacon.  Cooked it up and ate it.  Then Dan B came round in his suped-up V-Dub Combi, nox system and all, and took me out for a rocket ride to a nearby beach with a lovely little pier (Clevedon).  Started to feel ever more rough.  Dan said, “I’ll take you back mate.”  Mid-journey and said, “Pull over! Pull over!”.   I clambered out of the van on Hotwells road, fell onto my hands and knees on the pavement and just emptied my stomach in a throat-ripping wail. Several times.  Passers-by were of no significance.  My world reduced to the horror in my stomach and the pavement.  Dan B was an angel; found me water; got me home.  

Turns out my fridge is on the blink and has been turning off and on over the past few days.  Bad bacon. Ugh!

I've been buying more music, as usual, a few favourites, a few randoms - I like browsing Mp3 stores and sampling music if I like the band name, album cover, stuff like that.

A big wow for me right now (working on Ch 25) is "Extended" by Solar Fields (and old fave of mine).

Solar Fields

Finally I recently scored some fan mail from Japan.  I know it's not a massive deal, but I'm really pleased to see my work has made it out there.  

Future plans.  Once I get Dog Eat Dog finished, I need to look into making my work available for the iPad and other eBook formats.  Then, maybe after Autumn 2010, start working on the Yellow Dawn again.  I want to release a greatly stripped down version as a free PDF (Yellow Dawn Lite) and start writing some more scenarios.  I had a lot of fun working on Shadows of the Quantinex, and playing it too, often get flashbacks from the visuals. So, plenty to get on with for 2010 going into 2011.

Letters - Fan mail from Japan

I got this email from a guy in Japan, and I'm pleased as punch.  Nice to think my work's getting read as far away as that.
Here's the email, I've stripped out his identity for privacy:



> Date: Sun, 14 Mar 2010 00:00:59 +0900
> From: XXXX@pop02.odn.ne.jp
> To: XXXXX@hotmail.com
> Subject: question about EDGE
>
> Dear Mr. David J. Rodger
>
> How do you do?
> I'm Mr. Atsushi N_____, a Japanese. Recently I bought your Cthulhu
> Mythos novel EDGE via lulu.com. I was interested in a phrase "creation
> of a new Great Old One" which was described in davidjrodger.com.
>
> Usually I should write to you after finishing to read the novel, but my
> English skill is not so good and I'm not sure how much time does it take
> to have done with the great novel...2 years, 3...or perhaps more. So
> please excuse my impoliteness to question about novel's character before
> finishing it.
>
> As said above I'm interested in Cthulhu deities because that I like the
> Mythos. But in scanning I could not find Cthulhu deity-like name easily
> in your novel. Did you described the new god without mentioning the name?
> Or am I overlooking it somewhere in all of the pages?
>
> I'm appreciate if you could tell me about it with the god's name (if
> it's named) by your creation and its overall characteristics and/or
> descriptions.
>
> I have not read the Cthulhu Mythos story the scene of which is laid in
> New Zealand with some of high-tech elements...and snowboarding. I'll
> enjoy to read it.
> Again so sorry for my abrupt e-mail.
> I'm glad if I could your reply.
>
> Sincerely yours,
> Atsushi N_________

Desert dunes, speed boats, extravagant luxury and concrete sand and dust.

¦ dialling in from Umm Suqeim #, Dubai ¦

 

01:34 UAE, Sunday 28th Feb 2010. 

 

I'm hunched forward in a big L-shaped settee, firm but soft oatmeal fabric, white ceramic tiles beneath my bare feet, mercifully cool against the intense heat and humidity of the night.  I'm in a large open plan lounge / dining room.  Sliding glass doors to my left open up into a walled garden... a wooden gate leads into an alley formed by high wooden fencing, the alley zig-zags around various properties and ends in a large swimming pool.  The house itself is all on one floor.  Lots of space.  I'm about to go to bed, then up in a handful of hours to catch a flight back to the UK. 

 

Dubai is a bizarre and yet amazing location.  I'll certainly come back.  I could even live / work out here for a couple years if the direction of my life went that way. 

 

Jo and I travelled out there to see the place, and were looked after by Jo's very lovely and wealthy friends H & C; a married couple in their mid-thirties who have climbed above the middle-rungs in international corporate world.

 

Dubai...

 

Vast size.  Far beyond anything I'd ever imagined.  Looking at the spare tourist map H & C gave us when we arrived, I figured the distance their house to the Creek was only three or four miles.  An hour's walk max?  Wrong.  It was a staggering straight line road 15 miles long.

 

It's a playground for the wealthy, and for architects and structural engineers.

 

Building sites and luxury palace's co-existing within the vast plains of reclaimed desert; there are vast tracts where ground is a uniform grey brown of crushed concrete, dust and sand, abruptly bordered by lush green fauna or vibrant pink flora, deliberately placed there and kept alive by the myriad of thin black water tubes that bring life into the harsh ground.

 

Dubai hasn't even entered spring at the temperatures were already up to 33c.

 

And then there are well-developed and long established (couple years) locations, where the building site vibe has faded and rendering has dried and the staff and servants and guests are in full swing, and it's all magical and impressive.

 

Scratch below the surface though, and you hear many stories of random blisters of shoddy quality or bad workmanship appearing in even the best places.

 

This shouldn't spoil your fun.  Rather, you should accept it as part of the character of the place and allow those moments to amuse you.

 

It's gone through an incredible spurt of rapid expansion.  Dubai should be applauded for it's impressive enthusiasm and passion for creating the biggest and the best of everything.  In that rapid upward and outward surge, small blisters of crap are going to form.  It's inevitable whenever humans are involved.

 

Day 1

Arrived late at night after 7 hour flight. Collected by H & C and driven to their villa. Recent sandstorms had obscured much of the city-scape view with dust in the air.

 

 

Day 2

Woken by the dawn prayers of nearby mosques.

 

H & C head out to work.  Jo and I are left to own devices.

 

We throw on some clothes, lock up the villa and head out into unfamiliar terrain.  Yesterday we were in Bristol and 2c.

 

We've decided we're going to do the "Big Bus Company" tour of the city, get our bearings.  We walk to Jumeirah Beach Road and end up getting taxi to the nearest bus-stop because the distances are so incredibly vast.

 

Bus Tour is well worth it.  Two decks, upper deck open to elements.  It took us 8 hours, including 1 hour on a Dhow cruise along the creek, to do the whole circuit... almost no time exploring away from the bus (we figured that would happen when H & C took us out).  You do not get to see much culture by European standards (not a snobby statement, just a fact, Dubai's only 25 years old so compare that with the Roman city of Bath in the UK, for example).  I had my tunes playing and my eyes open.  A lot of blasting along motorways with warm wind roaring over you, or chugging past large building developments, just starting or near completion; again, that impression of concrete in the dust heat, of cranes and cladding... but also the impressive size of it all. The city's delight in its own growth.

 

On the Dhow boat cruise, don't expect to be glimpsing the kind of archaeological treasures you can be shown on a cruise down the Nile in Egypt.  The blaring tour-recording talks about building's built in the 80's and 90's, about a large car park that can hold 2,000 vehicles to relieve pressure on the Souks.  It's not enlightening stuff, but it was nice to just cruise up and down and see the city from another angle.

 

We got back to H & C's place around 7pm. The sun had set.  Out in the wall garden, C had set up a BBQ and oil lamps fluttered, throwing off a rich yellow light. We ate and drank and told stories.  We listened to final prayers from the mosques.  Stayed up late indoors before going to bed.

 

 

 

Day 3

Woken by the dawn prayers of nearby mosques.

 

Friday / Saturday is the weekend for international ex-pats in Dubai.

 

H & C prepared breakfast outside in the walled garden.  Water melon, toast and bacon sarnies.  Mmmmm :o)

 

C had wanted to take us out in his boat, but Dubai coast guard has a very strict policy: you must get authorisation on the day you want to go out, by faxing a form from marina to coast guard office, and then wait, for somebody to fax the form back with the appropriate stamp.  Sometimes the fax just never comes back.  Sometimes the marina tells you that the coast guard isn't letting anyone out that day.  It doesn't matter how big or small your boat is, how rich you are.  If the coast guard catch you out without the stamped faxed form, they can confiscate your boat.

 

Today was a nobody allowed out day.

 

We grabbed some supplies and walked five minutes to the vast beach front. Hazy view of the Burj Al Arab hotel nearby.  A sandstorm during the night had kicked up a lot of dust into the air, so all other high landmarks were hidden for now. Staggeringly beautiful beach.  Crystal green waters.  

 

Spent a few hours splashing around, swimming out to a large sandbank, lounging around in the sun.

 

Then we clambered into C's Range Rover and went for a drive and a tour. Vast 6 lane motorways where traffic interweaves with random insanity... almost as crazy as Cairo.  A lot of hard acceleration and heavy breaking.

 

Drive to one of the new palms under construction. Utterly huge development.  Jaw dropping tracts of deserted land that is a man made island in the Arabian Gulf.  Concrete.  Dust.  Cranes.  Half finished palaces and giant hotels.  No people. 

 

Then we blast out of the city and head into the open desert.

 

C turns off the strip of black top and takes us off-road in his Range Rover.

 

We stop. Get out.  I pull off my sandals and run up a dune in my bare feet.  It's beautiful, mysterious and potentially deadly.  Our trust and faith is in the machine that will take us back out of here.

 

The sun starts to set.

 

We drive back as night falls upon the city.

 

Head to Mina a'Salam for dinner. It's a hotel that's more like some extravagant creation of a medieval Arabian fortress / palace.  Lots of soft twinkling lights.  £30 for four drinks. A view of the sail, the Burj Al Arab hotel with its helipad jutting proudly out to sea.  To reach the restaurant we take a quick little boat, one of many, that runs guests between various parts of the hotel complex through it's internal man-made waterways.  Very quaint.  At the restaurant we're escorted to our table, one of a handful on wooden decking overlooking the beach.. white sands and black glassy water gleaming in the near-full moonlight overhead.

 

A great meal, shame about the unusual service.  Our waiter was a very short, very dark-skinned Sri-lanken who I dubbed Boris Karlof, because of his deep baritone voice, monosyllabic way of speaking, and weirdly intense glaring eye contact.

 

 

Day 4

Woken by the dawn prayers of nearby mosques.

 

A lazy breakfast.  Marmite on toast, fruit smoothies and water melon, sitting out in the walled enclosure of the garden.

 

H & C take us to one of the marinas and take us out on their twin engine speed boat. The weather turns weird however.  There's a promise of rain in the air, the sky turns misty, the horizon vanishes.  C gives me the helm and I grin like a kid in a candy store as I gun this thing past 4,000 rpm, trim the engines a little and carve great sweeping arcs into the Gulf of Arabia.We head into the bays formed by the vast development of a new palm area… one of the gargantuan man-made islands.  Nobody around.  Eerie hazy sky merging with grey brown dust and concrete landscape.  It was like something out of Yellow Dawn.  Very evocative.  

In fact, Dubai has had a massive influence on me for my writing within the Yellow Dawn world.  Dubai is like the early days of New Tokyo, perhaps.

 

That night we head out to the Atlantis.  A monstrosity of a hotel perched on the edge of the original palm... a man-made island nosing far out into the gulf.  A round of drinks.  And then the heavens open.  We wait a while for the rain to ease up a little.  The bar is out on its own.  To get back to our car we have to cross a badly lit pleasure area of swimming pool and sun loungers, go through the main hotel and out the far side.  I come outside the bar, trot down a couple of steps to the ground area that is reflecting the moonlight back as if it's a layer of water.  Two steps down and I'm ankle deep.  JESUS!  I yelp and jump back, to much laughter from the others.  I'm convinced I've been a dumb-ass and tried walking into the swimming pool. But no.  In the half hour of rain, the Atlantis has started to sink.  We reach the hotel and discover the lower floors have started to flood.  C and I take off our boots and wade back through the hotel with bare feet and trousers rolled up, much to the chagrin of hotel staff who are apologising to everyone we see.

 

Reaching the car we discover that most of the roads are flooding.

 

Even off the island, in the city, which doesn't have the storm drains to cope with the deluge, surface water is causing mayhem.

 

We have dinner at the Royal Meridian, with big discounts because the rain has closed the Arabian restaurant we'd booked into.  Instead we have Thai.  Probably the best Thai food I've ever eaten in a restaurant.  Nuff said.  Bloody perfect.

 

Back home, with damp feet, full bellies and big smiles, we chilled out.

 

Now everyone's gone to bed and here I am, writing this...

 

Back home tomorrow, due to get to Bristol around 6pm, and 2c.  Brrrrr.

The Rebirth of my social life



¦ dialling in from Sky Bunker ¦

17:13 GMT, Sunday 21st Feb 2010.

Sitting in the warm breeze of life support, wrapped up in Starsky and squinting at my screen through the throb of a receding hangover and the general fug of a non-functioning brain.  No writing today.

I'm playing Enigma's first album again, on vinyl. The sun is starting to fade beyond the horizon and the distant rural hills overlooking Bristol.  It's been a glorious day; cold, but blazing sunlight.

Another stellar weekend.

As was last weekend... 13th Feb, headed out to the Square lounge, part of Berkley Square hotel, tres up market, tres good vibes. Ant and Annas combined 30th b/day.  Everyone dressed up as circus freaks or burlesque ladies.  No costume for me: I'd been too deep into writing or frazzled from work intensity during days leading up... but I was able to borrow a really cool hat.

The double-whiskey's flowed and I got a buzz on.

DJ playing classic rave tunes from late 80's and early 90's.  I danced my ass off.  

Party relocated around 1am to a nearby club: Dojo's... more Techno / Trance, and I'm in there wearing a freaky Gangs of New York hat and handlebar moustache.  

Great response from everyone there.

A lot of happy club vibes. A general crowd of familiar faces builds up on the dance floor around me during the night.

Fun city all around.

A girl comes up to me around 6 A.M., taps my arm with a mischievous smirk on her lips and says, "I've pulled then."

She's referring to me.

Hmmm.

I smile and keep on dancing, then walk over to corner of club, grab my jacket off the floor, walk out club into a taxi and head home. Flattered, but not for me.

I get home, strip off sweaty clothes and crawl into bed next to Jo, loving what I have with her.

It's Valentines day.

Later in the morning she wakes me up with breakfast in bed.  Eggs cooked with a heart-shaped template... on toast and gallons of tea. What a lady.

Sunday is a write-off regarding doing anything with my brain, but, there's a whole day of Poirot on TV. Bliss city.  I lay on sofa and enjoy.

The week is busy.  Work is ramping up with project pressures.  I'm back into eating Sushi a couple times a week for lunch; not cheap but worth it for the fuel for the brain.  

Dog Eat Dog evolves slowly, but I'm finding a groove with it again and very happy with what I'm pushing out.

Doc Toc has been reading the raw draft and says it's my best work to date.

I get a great review of God Seed from Matthias (Mr Vega$).

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And Edge, my last book, a thriller set in a snowboarding resort starts to spike in sales again, surging ahead of the other novels.

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So, happy days.
Except...

This week has seen my mum settling heavily on my thoughts.  

I miss her loads.

Friday night appears almost as if the week has vanished in the blink of my eyes.

Jo's away all weekend and I'm up in the Sky Bunker, laying down the final part of chapter 22... but I'm in the mood for not staying in.

I arrange to meet Doc Toc at the scene of last week's crime: the Square lounge.

Late night drive into town.

A couple pints of lager shandy for me and fun night with the man.

A very late night trip to the Magic Roll to feast on food heaven.

I drive Doc Toc back to his palace and then depart home.  

Some Modern Warfare 2, online multiplayer mode.

Then I crawl into bed and sink into deep slumber.

To be woken, before 9 am, by the new guy next door shouting at his girlfriend: Jack and Elspeth, the new characters in Crazy Chronicles - where does the landlord advertise for tenants?  I roll over onto my back, inhale a lungful of air and shout SHUT-UUUP!!!

Psycho Jack goes quiet.

I doze, then crawl out of bed and brew tea.  Sit in bed for a bit reading a book.  Then I'm up and out, driving Rocket into town and settle into my familiar seat at the Arnolfini Cafe. Strong coffee and a pain au chocolat.

2 hours later I've finished chapter 22.

The next chapter has got me excited.  I have to write my first Dead City run.

The rest of the day is spent in the Sky Bunker. Then last night arrives.  I grab a bus ride into town and feel liberated not having to worry about my car: where to park, limiting consumption.

The Big Chill bar.  Off Corn Street.  My new favourite place.  I get friendly with Chris, the barman.  He pours shots of double whisky with European style... fuck the exact measures... whisky overspills and floods my glass. Good man, Chris.

I'm meeting with Dan B.  Like Ant / Anna, he collects intelligent good natured people.  A crowd gathers at our table and its fun and smiles all round.  The bar starts to heave.  I get chatting with a lovely Kiwi bloke called Matt; grabbed his number so will hopefully keep in touch.    

We depart the bar and everything is a swirl of movement, noise, and grins. A lot of whisky in my system.  We end up heading to a house party.  During the walk I turn round and find a solitary girl behind us, strolling along with a pint in her hand.  Random character.  I say hello and she ends up joining the gang and the party.  

There's a bottle filled with what looks like luminous green fluid: Absinthe.  80%.  Say goodbye.

I wake up in daylight on a random sofa, blankets and sleeping bags draped over me.  

I depart and walk to Boston Tea Party and treat myself to scrambled eggs on toast with salmon and a massive mug of tea.

The sun is out and it's a beautiful day.

I decide to walk back home.

It's 5 miles.

Tunes come on my headphones that are from the period of mum's death and the subsequent days.

I get depressed and misty eyed.

Near the end of the walk I have to hike up a massive hill.  I try to take a short cut and enter a labyrinth of streets... and actually get lost and totally disoriented.  The lingering Absinthe and whisky in my system isn't helping me.  I end up asking an old granny putting her bins out for directions to the main road.  I find the main and discover I'm almost opposite my house.  Surreal.

The house feels alien.  I feel glum and my mind keeps conjuring images of mum... I miss her.  And I suddenly miss the house, and Jesmond, and I want to be there.  And at some point this year it'll be sold, and it'll be gone.

Hot bath and mugs of tea dispel my feeling of gloom.

Then I resume my love affair with driving the silver Rocket... hood down... Russian tank hat on... Theory of a Dead Man and 30 Seconds to Mars blasting out.

I drive and drive and feel good. The air is freezing but the hat keeps me snug.  The sun is hot on my skin.  

Stopping for a coffee with Doc Toc the lack of movement catches up on me and I crumple into a hangover.

So now I'm home, taking it easy. But there are new names and numbers in my phone; new contacts and people to meet; new stories to hear and more laughs ahead.

I can still write and make progress with the new novel, but no longer at the expense of my social life.

Crazy Chronicles RELOADED – The Wolfman – Dog Eat Dog 86,000 words


¦ dialling in from Sky Bunker ¦

19:27 GMT, Saturday 13th Feb 2010.

Buzzing on coffee and bopping up and down in my chair to the tunes thumping through the big speakers mounted either corner of my desk. Currently listening to : "Vertical" by Vibrasphere, from their feking mind-expanding feet pounding arm waving album called "Exploring the Tributaries".

Life support is on, blowing hot air across my bare legs.  I'm wrapped in Starsky and big wool Norwegian socks, skin all pink and steaming since I just climbed out from a hot bath.  Hair. growing long and shaggy again is damp against my skull.  My handlebar moustache is still in place... and continues to generate a lot of positive feedback (surreal).

Talking of surreal.  New neighbours have moved into the house next door; the house was bought around same time Jo and I bought ours, a semi detached.  The owner carved it up into upstairs / downstairs flats.  Downstairs we never hear.  Upstairs... well, some of you will recall the nutcase who shared his nazi / military / ufo rantings with us by shouting them through the wall.  He vanished many months ago. It's been silence since.  Then, a week ago, a young couple move in and ... several mornings now I've lain in bed with my first mug of tea hearing the bloke (tall, gangly fuckhead with an irritating whiney voice that never stops to take a breath) yelling about something.

This morning, Saturday, not long gone 8 a.m. he kicks off again.  I tell Jo to protect her ears.  She grins and does so.  I yell at the top of my voice, "Blah blah blah!"

I hear him react, I hear him yelling back at me coming closer to the wall, outraged...

"BLAH BLAH BLAH" I continue, louder.

He screams something.

I respond with an aria like baritone, something like from the Walls Ice Cream advert, "Just one corneto" but without any words. (YouTube for Corneto, http://tinyurl.com/yb36klo)

He falls silent.

So....
It's been an indulgent day. I cooked a big pan of bacon in the oven this morning and put together so divine tasting sarnies... a little cheddar cheese, a little French mustard. Mmm, mmm. Then coffee from the steel octagonal coffee god.  Then upstairs into the sky bunker to work on Dog Eat Dog.

I'm at Tappan Zee bridge; an infection free zone, north of the living city of New York. The character is anxious about being this close to the dead zone.

So I do post-apocalyptic narrative for the morning, then jump into my silver rocket, pull down the hood despite the grey chilly day, bang on "30 Seconds to Mars" the MP3 player, pull on my Russian tank hat, and hurtle into town with a grin stitched across my face.

Arnolfini Cafe.

More coffee.  

More Dog Eat Dog. I hit 86,000 words. Chapter 22 is going to be a bit of a beast.

Then rendezvous with Doc Toc, go see Wolfman. Great flick. Amazing how much Benicio Del Torror resembles Lon Chaney Jr; I've loved the George Waggner version since first seeing a ton of these  b/w horror flicks in my early teens.  The writers on this version have done a great job of keeping the spirit of the original film whilst adding in some brutal and very dark twists.

Back home and here I am, bopping in my chair to Vibrasphere, about to get ready for a night out on the tiles.  Been too long since I've gotten dolled up and into a party groove.  I'm getting flashbacks to mid-20's and that pit-of-the-stomach flutter of anticipation about what the night ahead might hold.


Mexican hangover-again, crap Spook Country, Wordpress and vBulletin


¦ dialling in from Sky Bunker ¦

11:02 GMT, Sunday 7th Feb 2010.  Cold grey misty light flooding into the sloping room through the glass canopy behind me.  Enigma’s first album is playing on the turntable below my desk; vinyl, I can hear the needle scratching through a groove that is 20 years old now.  

Had to turn it down a little, though.  My head’s feeling somewhat sensitive.

The Mexican vibe has continued from last weekend when Sharky was over here, visiting from Spain with his bottle of lethal Tequila.  Jo’s twin sister stayed with us last night, and we found we had some triple sec left… so made a quick trip to shops for another bottle of Tequila and lemon juice.  I crushed salt, coated the rim of broad glasses, and mixed up some margaritas.  Just as fatal as last weekend.  Within two sips I was gibbering and laughing along with my girlfriend and her twin.
        
Also cooked up a DAMN fine chilli.

They crashed before midnight.  I stayed up until 3 A.M. playing Mordern Warfare 2.  So I think today’s fluffy head is a combo of too much booze, too little sleep, and too much PS-Fekking-3.

It’s been an indulgent weekend.  Based purely doing only what I want to do.

DocToc stayed over Friday night after a city centre rendezvous with James Catholic Funboy.  Drove back home that night in rocket with hood down, DocToc grinning like a shark at a car load of girls that pulled up next to us as some lights.  I had my Russian tank gunner hat on, with floppy furry ears, and my handlebar moustache draped above my pout.  Lights turned green.  I floored it.  Can’t believe how quick this car is.

Saturday morning took DocToc back into town and had rendezvous with Nice Guy Tony.  Too much coffee and only a chocolate croissant for breakfast left me with the shakes.  I got home and failed to settle into a comfortable writing groove… only a few lines, and too much PS3 (perhaps).  But like I said, the weekend is about doing what I want to do, so I make no apologies for putting my life in front of my book.

It’s been an intense week at work: project echo.  Migrating a bunch of commercial / editorially driven websites from a disparate mix of platforms, onto one standard: Wordpress.  Spent many months doing requirements capture, then devs built up a vanilla version with tons of cool functionality, sans any branding; then reviewing with stakeholders and project board, getting sign-off.  Early January we took a copy of the vanilla code base and began applying it to the first in my list of sites to migrate (17 in total).  This means getting new designs (created by web design team, or print art editors going through a steep learning curve for web); skinning the vanilla version, migrating data, testing, and launching.  We’re also migrating away from phpBB forums to vBulletin; and have written a single sign-on plug-in, allowing users access to the forum, to comment on the site, and request newsletters, all with one registration form.  Some sites will be fresh vBulletin installs; others will require data migration.  Phew! We successfully launched the first site last Wednesday.  Almost flawless. Very pleased.

And each editorial team that gets given “the keys to the new cms” always seem to go gaga and fall in love with the simplicity, power and ease of adding content to their new site.  So, Wordpress works for me as a commercially viable platform.

That night Game Breaker Hagen (GBH) came round with a surprise for me.  A proper waffle pan from Norway.  Holyyyyyyy Shiiiiiiiit!  Fantastic.  We spent the night cooking up authentic Norwegian waffles, to the point where you could have rolled us out of the house and down the street. Ugh.  Too many.  But just divine.

So I bought “Spook Country” by William Gibson.  What a heap of crap.  What’s happened to William Gibson?  He used to be so good.  I had to re-read the first page about 6 times, and then struggled to get through the first chapter without yawning: in the end I thought, “life’s too short” and chucked it away.

I’ve still got my handlebar moustache.  Really liking it: I’ll post a picture when I find time.

Ooooh, the sun’s just poked its head out.  I might go for a spin in Rocket, hood down, clear the tequila fluff from my brain.

Book of Eli, MW2, 30 Seconds to Mars, Project Echo, Uncharted 2... my handlebar moustache


It’s been a good week.

I’d gone to Newcastle but came back early, after discovering the Jesmond bubble no longer existed.  The privilege of jumping on an early flight cost me £70 but it was worth it.  Why linger in a place when you’re unhappy.  Life’s too short.  So I got back to Bristol Saturday evening and had Cosy Castle to myself for the rest of the weekend.  This consisted of me playing Modern Warfare 2, writing Dog Eat Dog and going for zoomy drives in my silver rocket.

Kelvin arrived from Spain on Monday.

He’s the perfect house guest.  So a week flashes past.  Busy days at work with lots going on, generating a sense of purpose and professional pleasure (Project Echo); my writing crammed into a small window in the morning before starting, lunchtime and a little at night.  Then long evenings at home with Jo and Kelvin.  I built a log fire every night.   We went to cinema with Doc Toc on a Monday night: saw the incredible film THE BOOK OF ELI.  Beautiful soundtrack, shaped by some of the musical minds behind NIN; wonderful cinema photography and visual metaphors.  A lot of late nights playing Modern Warfare 2.

I’ve got two new soundtracks in my world.

“Scars & Souvenirs” album by Theory of a Deadman.  This is my weekend in Hayling Island and the brilliant drive back through winter sun kissed rural landscape.



“This is War” album by 30 Seconds to Mars.  This is Dog Eat Dog at the tail end of New Tokyo and also the tracks playing on my MP3 player when I headed up to Newcastle for my bum weekend.


The weekend arrived.

Friday night was Mexican night.  Rather appropriately I’ve acquired a thick handlebar moustache.  When I shaved my beard off mid-week, I left the thing as a joke… when downstairs to creep out Jo and she went, “Wow, I love it.”  Hmmm, right… I wasn’t expecting that.  Kelvin brought with him a litre of high quality tequila from Spain.  I bought triple sec and lemon juice.  We got a fire going.  I made a jug.  After the first two sips we were all wankered.  Hilarious.  By the end of the night we’d gone through a litre of tequila.  

Amazingly, woke up Saturday without a hangover.  Just a cotton-wool wrapped brain and a feeling of having had a good time.  Early morning drive to hang out with Vega$ at his Hazmat labs in Bath… me driving in cold winter sun with the hood down.  

Saturday night was Jules party.  I wasn’t going to drink but there was a good crowd there and the gin flowed, followed by Jack Daniels.

Sunday didn’t leave the house.  Build up the log fire and had the front room ultra toasty.  We made food food food, guzzled gallons of tea and watched Poirot all day.  I also started playing Uncharted 2: Among Thieves.  

Sunday was also the last day of the £6 GBP discount on Edge.  There was a sharp spike in sales after I tweeted as such, so thanks to everyone who’s bought in.

That’s it.

Happy Sunday

¦ dialling in from Hayling Island ¦

10:38 GMT, Sunday 17th Jan 2010.  

It’s only a day since my last entry but feels much longer.

Languid, blissful time here.

Yesterday: Drove to a pub called The Raft, 4 miles along the shore.

Finished Chapter 19 (already finished Ch 20) and now working on reviewing my plan for the rest of the book, as the story is about to go through big change, and the characters thrust in a new direction.  The plan I’m currently working to was created back in 2006 / 2007, during two trips I took to South of France (Montpellier/ Perols/ Aigues Mortes). Like any plan, once you engage you discover the need to change things: so this is a good point to pause writing, pause pushing forward, and taking time to check the road map is still relevant.

Late yesterday afternoon I took a walk on beach in rain with Pete. Went much further than he’s ever been before: this island is where Pete grew up since a small child.  As we walked the rain stopped and was replaced by a magical light: there was not another soul in sight.  The atmosphere became ethereal.  Pressing on we discovered a wonderful part of the island, very hard to describe, but involved distant coastline half lost in mist, dark smudges and blocky outlines… closer to hand were vast stretches of wet sand and the odd sandbank poking out of shallow waters.  A lot of space.  A lot of distance.

Pete returned by a different route. I walked back on my own with headphones in, racing the setting sun to get off the beach before dark… incoming tide… stop, turn and look behind me, and then ahead of me, not another soul in sight. Fantastic.

Last night saw the traditional game of Fury of Dracula.

I relished the idea of bed, and being able to go to sleep with window open; which I did, and was serenaded by rolling waves on the shore.

Woke up 7 a.m. today, mug of tea, then dressed and out, walking the same lengthy route in the early sunrise. Golden light.  Fire burning in a blue sky, reflecting off gently lapping water.

I texted all the friends I have in my phone book to wish them a happy Sunday… a lovely, divine and genuinely happy moment.

This has been very special trip.

Sountrack to these memories, and to this stage of Dog Eat Dog is “Scars and Souveniers”, by Theory of a Dead Man

I left mid afternoon.  Pete was flying up to Newcastle later that night.

My drive back, nosing Rocket into sweeping corners, hugging tight bends and blasting along empty straights of the A36, a brilliant rural road cutting across SW England. I had the hood down for most of the way; I was wearing my snow jacket with a snood tight against my neck, and a Russian tank hat with thick fur trim… the “ears” flapping up and down with the rush of air, probably making me look like some kind of demented dog with a human face.

Having spent a lot of the past two weeks reading Bram Stoker’s Dracula, and especially today with such brilliant sunlight flooding the landscape… I felt as though I was chasing the sunset like the heroes at the end of the story.

Getting home I discovered my right hand was almost frozen into place around the steering wheel: I lost all sensation in it for half an hour.  Whoops.  But I spent most of the drive with a massive grin carving my face, what was visible within the thick fur of the hat and my big golden sunglasses.

Blissful moments in time.

A weekend writing by the sea


¦ dialling in from Hayling Island ¦

09:13 GMT, Saturday 16th Jan 2010.  I’m sitting at a round table in the heart of a small lounge.  The wall ahead of me is dominated by a window that looks out onto a ridge of shingle, beyond which is the vast expanse of the sea…grey and angry and throwing out whips of white foam.  No lights are on and the morning is the colour of blue-grey ash, matching the colour of the dead light that uniformly fills the horizon stretching out in front of me, above the sea.

This is Hayling Island, on the south coast of England. I’m with Pete, my friend and the neighbour of my parent’s house up in Newcastle.  This house belonged to his recently deceased father.  

I’ve come here to write, acting upon Pete’s invitation.

The snow has finally melted from the roads.

Drove here yesterday.  For some reason, despite having Rocket for 6 months now, it’s the first time I’ve been on a long journey on my own.  Great feeling of freedom, and the anticipation of new things. I took the A36.  Almost no traffic.  Good speed along winding blacktop, clear of snow and ice, through rural landscape that was mostly still locked in the grip of chill white.

As I neared Hayling, the freezing fog patches and grey skies cleared to make room for a golden sunset.  After I arrived there was time for Pete and I to hurry onto the shingle beach and stroll a while before dark.

Then Pete cooked up a feast, a rack of lamb each, thick cut steak and roast potatoes with onions cooked in stock.  I worked on my laptop for a while but after the meal we just settled down with glasses of wine and relaxed.  A game of “Fury of Dracula” of course; I brought my copy down from Bristol.

The room Pete gave me overlooked the sea.  I cranked open the window and fell asleep to the pounding of the surf and the wash hissing across shingle.

Then a storm came in, and thankfully blew the window shut… I was woken by howling wind and rain slamming against the glass.  I rolled up, smiling in the snug heat of the duvet and drifted off again.

Perfect.

This morning I was up at dark; brewed a coffee and sat in my room watching the sky lighten to the colour of ash.  

Some reading of Bram Stoker’s Dracula.

And now to start my day of writing.

Reading Bram Stoker’s Dracula by thunderous firelight


¦ dialling in from Sky Bunker ¦

19:19GMT, Tuesday 12th Jan 2009.  Sat in glow of one tablelamp.  Snow is swirling beyond the glass canopy behind me… it’s freezing out there, bitter winds and a nasty wet snow which may, or may not lie.  I’m playing a vinyl album by Enigma, their first release from 1990.  Lovely.

Today was my first day feeling normal.  

It was also the first day I managed to dig my car out to get to work since all this snow began a week ago; up to now I’ve been relying on the utterly crap First Bus service, or simply not able to get to Bath at all.

Really good day at work today.  Back into the swing of things and less of me shuffling around in a sort of numb daze.

Got home tonight just as fresh snow began falling.  I lit a fire in the front room, turned the lights off; kept the TV off, and got back to the book I’ve been reading since New Years Eve, at the fabulous hotel by the sea in Devon…. Dracula, by Bram Stoker. I’ve never actually read the story, only fed from the smorgasbord of film and TV adaptions…

Wow!  The book is incredible.

So tonight, I sat cross legged in the dark room, leant slightly forward so as to catch the blazing firelight in the open pages before me.  I had the vent open full throttle so create a bed of hot embers so the thing was roaring, thunderous, blissful…

All that was missing was a glass of red wine.

So I’m up in the Sky Bunker now.  Not writing tonight.  Did plenty this morning before work, and during lunchtime.  Yet another difficult chapter – number 19, Carlos wrestling with the demons of his past and a new threat to his liberty in New Tokyo.

Instead, I’ve got a date with Modern Warfare 2.  Online, multi-player mode, rendezvousing with Jamieson (who’s I London) at 8pm to join a mass arena.  Blue-tooth headsets allowing us to talk to each other in real time.  Faaaantastic.

Did the very same thing last night, with Vega$ joining in.  A three-way mash up with full voice capability.  I’m loving this technology.

Very much getting back into early Enigma.  I found out that Sandra Ann Lauer was the female voice.  You can find her page here:
Sandra Ann Lauer Fan Page