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¦ dialling in from Umm Suqeim #, Dubai ¦
01:34 UAE, Sunday 28th Feb 2010.
I'm hunched forward in a big L-shaped settee, firm but soft
oatmeal fabric, white ceramic tiles beneath my bare feet, mercifully cool
against...
¦ dialling in from Sky Bunker ¦17:13 GMT, Sunday 21st Feb 2010. Sitting in the warm breeze of life support, wrapped up in Starsky and squinting at my screen through the throb of a receding hangover and the general fug of a non-functioning brain. ...
¦ dialling in from Sky Bunker ¦19:27 GMT, Saturday 13th Feb 2010. Buzzing on coffee and bopping up and down in my chair to the tunes thumping through the big speakers mounted either corner of my desk. Currently listening to : "Vertical" by Vibrasphere,...
¦ dialling in from Sky Bunker ¦ 11:02 GMT, Sunday 7th Feb 2010. Cold grey misty light flooding into the sloping room through the glass canopy behind me. Enigma’s first album is playing on the turntable below my desk; vinyl, I can hear the...
It’s been a good week. I’d gone to Newcastle but came back early, after discovering the Jesmond bubble no longer existed. The privilege of jumping on an early flight cost me £70 but it was worth it. Why linger in a place when you’re unhappy. ...
¦ dialling in from Hayling Island ¦10:38 GMT, Sunday 17th Jan 2010. It’s only a day since my last entry but feels much longer.Languid, blissful time here.Yesterday: Drove to a pub called The Raft, 4 miles along the shore. Finished Chapter 19 (already...
¦ dialling in from Hayling Island ¦09:13 GMT, Saturday 16th Jan 2010. I’m sitting at a round table in the heart of a small lounge. The wall ahead of me is dominated by a window that looks out onto a ridge of shingle, beyond which is the vast...
¦ dialling in from Sky Bunker ¦19:19GMT, Tuesday 12th Jan 2009. Sat in glow of one tablelamp. Snow is swirling beyond the glass canopy behind me… it’s freezing out there, bitter winds and a nasty wet snow which may, or may not lie. I’m...
¦ dialling in from Sky Bunker ¦19:28 GMT, Thursday, 7th Jan 2010.Thursday already. Where has this week gone?Monday was first day back at work after being off 2 months. Compassionate leave. A little bit of a bumpy re-entry but fundamentally fine. ...
¦ dialling in from Sky Bunker ¦12:27 GMT, Saturday 2nd January 2010. I'm sitting in the dusty, cluttered chamber of the Sky Bunker, with its cracked roof a reminder of the storms that hit the house whilst I've been away. Enigma's first album...
¦ dialling in from Jesus Mound ¦ 15:56 GMT Tuesday 29th December 2009. I'm sitting at the oak refectory table. A few occasional lamps cast a warm glow in small areas of this cavernous room. A log fire is blazing in the corner,...
¦ dialling in from Jesus Mound ¦14:06 GMT, Saturday 26th December 2009. I say it's Saturday but it really could be any day and I wouldn't know the difference. A combination of the natural breakdown of normal time-keeping during the Christmas...
¦ dialling in from Jesus Mound ¦08:40 GMT, Friday 18th December 2009. I'm sitting at the oak refectory table in that beautiful blue white light that comes with heavy snow cover. To my left, double french doors and two wide windows look out...
¦ dialling in from Jesus Mound ¦13:24 GMT, Wednesday 16th December 2009. It doesn't seem to have stopped raining for a month now. It's a cold, unpleasant sort of rain, not helped by the lack of heating in the house. Can't afford to have...
10th December. Bristol. Sky Bunker. Tomorrow will be one month since mum died. But I'm not going to dwell on this, be maudlin or negative. It's going to mark a point where I move on. I tried going back to work on Monday. ...
¦ dialling in from Jesus Mound ¦I'm sitting in the cavernous space of the extended lounge at the back of the house. Darkness pressing up against the windows and French doors. The place looks just as it did when mum died. My sister's...
I've been scribbling down bits of thought in my A4 spiral bound notebook over the past days. Here's a collection of these scribbles.November 13. My mum came to me today in a waking dream. Two days since she died. I was on the Metro, an urban commuter...
I woke up today and felt normal.I'm going through the grieving process. First days in the house after mum died were horrible. The house had lost its soul. It was unfamiliar, cold (literally) and unwelcoming. I've got a lot of memories from this...
WEDNESDAY 11th NOVEMBER 2009
Just said goodbye to mum.
Now we're waiting for the undertakers to come and take her away.
We delayed calling them, giving us a chance to spend time with her.
Calling the undertaker started the clock ticking on the...
I'm tired. Sitting downstairs, a few soft lamps on, most of house in darkness. Ocean like sound coming through baby monitor... and mum's snoring.My eyes are swollen and puffy.Nose is red and raw.This is really hard... but then I'm not the one who's dying...
¦ dialling in from Jesus Mound ¦17:36 GMT, 6th November. It's a Friday but to be honest I don't know what day it is. Now in a surreal place, but one that is immensely positive despite the raw emotional state.Waking up this morning the sky was the...
¦ dialling in from sky bunker ¦04:24 GMT Thursday 5th November
2009. Sat in the soft light. Listening to Ulrich Schnauss, MP3
connected to stereo, blissful and calm sounds seeping through the big
speakers mounted either corner of my desk. In particular,...
¦ dialling in from Sky Bunker ¦22:05 GMT, Sunday 1st November 2009. Nip and a punch for the first day of the month; white rabbit. I was woken up at 7 o'clock this morning by the sound of a wheelie bin toppling over and the roof of the house...
¦ dialling in from Sky Bunker ¦08:27 GMT, Saturday 31st October 2009. A bright day outside with patchy blue skies. I'm feeling a little groggy. Stayed late at the office last night, slotting into a deep writing groove after 5pm. Almost...
¦ dialling in from Sky Bunker ¦05:20 GMT, Thursday 29th October 2009. Back into my early rise routine; first time since the recent stress at worked passed through and out my system. I've been up since 4 A.M. Snapped awake in the dark...